not only have i been lying about my virginity for well over a year and a half to my friends, but i had a miscarriage 3 weeks ago, and i don’t have the guts to tell my boyfriend.
I’m Bi-sexual. My friends know it and I know it. I’ve wanted to tell my family for some time, if only they already knew.
Sometimes, I randomly think of killing myself. Not out of depression but, just because I wonder what dying feels like.
I don’t understand how people in other countries could be so much nicer to me than the people in my own country, including my family. Then they wonder why I hate this country so much.
Most days, I feel like killing myself.
I want to have sex but I don’t want to be called a slut and I don’t want stds or to get pregnent.
I let my insecurities ruin so much in my life. It got to the point where I broke up with a guy because I knew he had a pool and I didn’t like the way I looked in a swim suit..
At family gatherings, I want to stand on a table, point to my mother and scream: “That woman is not the funny, easy-going person you think she is. When no one is around she has spit on me, strangled me, slapped me, and told me to kill myself.”